Today began, for those of us who believe in Jesus' life, Holy Week. Dave and I attended a Palm Sunday service, at which we listened to the betrayal of Jesus prior to his crucifixion. Without getting too religious (I honestly believe I''m not talking religion, I'm talking about my own spirituality), I felt so humbled by what has been given to me.
Let me be the first to tell you that I have made some incredibly dumb mistakes and some really scary choices in my lifetime. Whether you want to call it a guardian angel, God, a Higher Power, or whatever...I have been spared some pretty deservably negative consequences and instead have been granted an extensive amount of grace. Why me? All I know is that, despite not deserving any of the beautiful things in my life, I have been granted one day at a time filled with something nearing serenity. Do I still fret and worry about things I cannot control? Sometimes. Do I still get disappointed when I don't get my way? Sometimes. But the fact of the matter is: I have been given a life beyond my wildest dreams. In fact, I am going to admit something on this blog that I have told only one or two people in my entire life.
When I was a little girl, other girls would say, "I can't wait to get married and have children and be a ballerina and ......" ad nauseam. I, on the other hand, could not picture what adult life would even look like for me, because I was somehow convinced I would not live to adulthood. I am not trying to be maudlin about this; I just honestly couldn't picture being an adult, so I assumed I must not be destined to become one.
Lo and behold, I not only have reached adulthood, I have done it on steroids. Despite some major league poor choices at some times of my life, God (my Higher Power as I understand Him) has granted me some pretty amazing grace. He has paired me with my soulmate for the last 25 years---Dave---the best spouse a person could ever ask for. He has honored me with a passion for a career in education that has far surpassed anything I would have ever imagined when I played school with my stuffed animals when I was six years old. The life I live today was unimaginable when I was a little girl. My relationships with my family and friends are a dream come true.
And it's all due to God's grace in my life, certainly not by any accomplishment or achievement on my part.
What has grace done for you?
Please share with me----I love hearing from you.
3/25/2018 07:50:25 pm
Beautiful! I have felt the same way..never thought I would make it until 21, but by God's Grace, here I am 59 years old clean and sober.
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